Life is still a constant roller coaster here. Some days I am ok with
everything going on. Other days I feel so lonely and wonder if I am
making the biggest mistake of my life. I love the Tiger. I really love
him. I look at him everyday and wonder what went wrong. Why can't it be
different? All along I thought it was him. We were breaking up because
of him. As the days go on, I am beginning to think it's me. Maybe it's
really not, maybe it's the guilt of looking at my life being packed up
in boxes once again. Either way, the decision has been made and it's not
something that can be changed now. It is what it is. But, sometimes I
still feel so sad. As if now I am going to be alone forever. 30 is
coming up next year. I always thought I'd be married long before 30.
Looks like I'll be single.
House hunt is interesting. I enjoy
seeing how others live and what they describe as a "spacious 2 bedroom
with a beautiful view." I think I finally found the perfect place for me
and Missy last night. I am waiting on my application to be mailed to
me.
Job hunting is slow. I have an interview today for a temp to
perm job at a steel company. If I could get it, that would mean some
nice benefits. But, let's not try and get our hopes up here. I am rusty
in all of this stuff.
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